Showing posts from April, 2014

Bury The Painful Past.

I took a box and lined it with soft red velvet. I looked at each element of the past one last time and gently laid it in the box. I closed the lid and took it to the Garden of my Heart, dug a hole and placed the box inside. As I covered the box with the earth, I silently asked for forgiveness and forgave all the pain that accumulated over time. I released the pain, made peace with those stories that I no longer tell myself  and said a prayer of gratitude for all the lessons I have learned.
With the box now covered, I took a small tree and planted it over the burial site. I watered the little tree and then sat down and cried. I allowed the tears to wash away the past, so that my heart would be clear for Now. Over time that tree will grow and spread its branches. It will grow tall to remind me that something beautiful can come forth from all the challenges in my life.

Prepare your boxes, start filling them with things you no longer need, the stories that need to die. Bury them in peace. P…

Lil Miss Positivity To The Rescue! *cue wind machine*

One day a friend of mine was being kind of snarky with me and made this comment: “You’re not Lil Miss Positivity, ya know!”   I was a bit taken aback. Truth be told I HAVE to be a positive person, I don’t have a choice. Let me tell you why.
One day someone threw a word at me I had never heard before: EMPATH. When I first heard this word, I thought: ‘Oh great this New Age-y person is trying to put a weird label on me’. Well, one simple definition of an empath is a person who is capable of feeling the emotions of others despite the fact that they themselves are not going through the same situation. During her conversation this really nice woman pretty much summed up what my childhood experiences were like and how I basically have to navigate as an adult.
Some people may say that I am over-sensitive, I can cry at the drop of the hat. I can’t watch certain things, like really tragic news. Right now I want to see 12 Years a Slave, but after a really bad meltdown in the movie theater watc…

The Funk Of Fear

What would you do if you were not afraid?
Fear is a shackle and chain that holds us back from our true potential. It cuts off our desire to reach out, do amazing things and to feel the fullness of our lives. 
There is something we want to do but we are afraid to fail, afraid of what others will think of us, afraid that we may be wrong.  If there is something you want to do or experience and fear crops up, stop and look at it. 
You don't have to banish the feeling but use its momentum to PUSH you in the direction you need to go. 
More than likely that fear is presenting itself to remind you that whatever you're facing is something you're supposed to force you to move and to GROW.
So what would I do if I was not afraid: Be authentic, live and love!
Live Divine!

I Am Right On Time


A late bloomer is a person whose talents or capabilities are not visible to others until later than usual. The term can be used to metaphorically describe an adult whose talent or genius in a particular field only appears later in life than is normal – in some cases only in old age.

I may appear to be a later bloomer but actually I am right on time. I was not indecisive neither I was not blowing off my life, meandering from job to job. I was stuck. Yes, you see what I am doing right now, what I am blazing into is what I believe I should have started in my mid-twenties. But I grew up in a stifling belief system that would not have allowed me to be this expressive nor this real.

It all okay though. Because while I was stewing, in The Madness, I was learning some hard as hell lessons. I have a few things to say.

Now that I have broken free, I feel like a zenith. I have less time to accomplish what I am supposed to do, so I am pushing hard. No distracti…

The Story of Vivadivine.

The first gay man I ever met was Grainger Sanders. He christened me Vivadivine, dressed me up and threw me out on a stage at gay clubs when I was an innocent 19 year old.

For years I thought Vivadivine meant: LIFE DIVINE. It actually means LIVE [liv] DIVINE!
So is it just a coincidence that someone gave me a name that exactly describes the kind of life I aspire to live and share with others? I have been using this name on my website, blog and social media and it just hit me today that everything is connected to what I really love to do….LIVE!